Fri
Jul
15
its not easy to snatch an emergency row exit on a long haul flight as these usually only become available 24 hours before departure. when your flight takes 12 hours and you travel in economy class (which is as far as my budget stretched) you really want to try very hard to be amongst the first who log-in to battle for the best seats and i am happy to report that i succeeded. but it was in vain as i got upgraded to premium economy as soon as i arrived at the airport the next morning. what a great way to begin this adventure!
spending half an eternity on a plane by myself did made me feel a bit lost and lonely though and neither the shy japanese girl sitting next to me (who was asleep most of the time anyway) nor sending prank messages to strangers through the in-flight entertainment system helped much. the complimentary sparkling wine did.
Tue
May
24
‘make me break me’ is a delicate uplifting electropop-song and also the debut single by up-and-coming new swedish band ‘vanbot’. their first album has just been released and their sound is basically robyn meets la roux meets ester ideskog (who is the girl behind ‘vanbot’). stream and download the song for free here
Tue
Apr
19
sometimes when life is a downhill slope you’ve just got to lean back and enjoy the ride…
Wed
Mar
23
surprise me. challenge me. hold my hand and kiss me in public. sing with me in the shower. spend a lazy weekend on the couch with me watching my favourite shows from the last century. be passionate. don’t run from a fight. be spontaneous. be romantic, not cheesy. make me feel safe. introduce me to your parents. wear my ring. force me to use skincare. believe in me. laugh with me and cry with me. get me home when I’m too drunk to walk. let me feel strong and let me be weak. don’t judge and don’t get embarrassed. always be on my side in an argument with anyone else. hug me when i least expect it. be yourself.
Mon
Feb
14
random thoughts for valentine’s day. today is a holiday invented by greeting card companies… to make people feel like crap. i ditched work today. took a train out to montauk. i don’t know why. i’m not an impulsive person. i guess i just woke up in a funk this morning.
[eternal sunshine of the spotless mind]
Sat
Dec
4
hurts is a new british synthpop band who released their debut album ‘happiness’ this september. strangely enough the title track did not make it onto the actual album (which reminds me of omd and their beloved ‘sugar tax’ album) but other than that i am happy to report that this is one of my favourite musical gems of the year. here is my first ever track-by-track review:
1 silver lining : its a great opener with very crisp production and the actual song doesn’t start for more than a minute. (8/10)
2 wonderful life : this was the first single and i probably have heard this one a few times to often. its a good song but sounds a little out of place here. don’t ever listen to the dreadful kylie minogue cover version (7/10)
3 blood tears & gold : its an ok-ish song but halfway through it almost seems as if they were running out of words to sing. (6/10)
4 sunday : an upbeat song with not quite so upbeat lyrics. i really like those. (7/10)
5 stay : a slow song with a cute background choir. interesting production (7/10)
6 illuminated : this one is nice but also a bit boring. one of the weaker tracks of the album (5/10)
7 evelyn : weirdly i love the verses but not really a big fan of the chorus. (6/10)
8 better than love : second single ‘better than love’ delivers and is still as catchy as ever. (8/10)
9 devotion : perfection. (10/10)
10 unspoken : this track may seem a bit boring and generic at first but certainly grows on you over time (6/10)
11 water : my second favourite track of the album with a really haunting vibe to it. (9/10)
Mon
Nov
8
there are many things i don’t know how to do, but letting go of someone i deeply care for must be pretty high on that list. when your head tells you not to listen to your heart anymore, why is it so damn difficult to follow through? over the years not letting go has gotten me in all sorts of trouble, has significantly complicated my life and all my friends have long grown tired of saying “i told you so” over and over again. yet i refuse to learn my lesson. i’d rather keep holding on to what i truly feel than taking the easy way out. my emotional life has no exit scenario.
consequently i wish i could call recent developments in my life a ‘refreshing change’ but it actually feels like the ultimate defeat to me that i have finally been beaten and have been left with no choice but to let go of the one closest to my heart (family excluded). it saddens me, it frustrates me and i keep drowning in emotions i am no longer allowed to show (have). life lesson learned but also living a new life that will always feel empty.
Wed
Aug
4
going full circle and driving back to la, this time spending two nights in a lovely hotel in santa monica. the santa monica pier reminds me a lot of brighton pier and i win a precious magnet and a rather unique temporary ed hardy tattoo on a sheet of paper at the arcade hall. fashion debacle in downtown after i invested 2 dollars in a bandanna. was a little too overexcited to try it on and threw away the wrapping. now i have to keep it and cant even pretend that i bought it as a gift for somebody i hate and wanted to ridicule in public. damn…..
time to get on a plane and leave america behind. for now.
Mon
Aug
2
woke up and feel pretty much as dead as the rental car (which somehow seems to have run out of battery over the last two days).
hours later even the hotel room in the best part of the city (pacific beach) can’t make me fall in love with san diego and i miss vegas. at least all the post-marathon pain in my legs is finally gone and i am looking forward to los angeles and the santa monica pier…..
Sun
Aug
1
the big hangover arrives and gets treated properly at the huge hotel pool area. more mcdonalds, more gambling and free drinks at the table. of course only after showing them my id which in one case took 20 minutes to resolve as they had never seen an austrian drivers licence before and certainly didn’t have a clue what or where austria even is. still really loving the city though and wish i could stay longer. but tomorrow its time to move on to san diego where i am pretty sure it wont be legal to walk down the street with a beer in my hand. damn…..
